I need to send out a huge thanks to my social media friends and followers! You have been my support system throughout this horrific time in my life and I love you all! One of the worst side effects of chronic illness is the loss of friends. For whatever reason, be it cancelling on them one too many times, or their own inability to deal with illness, they seem to just disappear from your life. Some are long-term, even “best” friends, some, former work friends, some even family. They have their own reasons, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. The hardest part is when there’s no explanation. No goodbyes. No “I’m sorry, I just can’t.” They just disappear. Like it’s nothing. I have always thought of myself as a good friend. I’ve tried my best to always be there to laugh, cry, comfort, support, or just give an ear or a shoulder. I sometimes wonder if it’s my fault. I know I’m not who I used to be, but pain changes people. Especially chronic pain. I’m not sure I’d want to be around me now, but I like to think I would stay. Thankfully, my social media network support groups, chat rooms, and friends have stayed. Some because they are going through something similar to me, others because of our common interests. Regardless, they are here and always happy to listen, give advice, comfort, support, and everything I need right now. Really that’s all anyone could wish for and I have it! I am so thankful! And again, I love you all and will always be there for you!