Sleep is my happy place. A place without worry or pain. An escape from reality. A place where good things happen and, usually, the bad things stay away. I do have nightmares. But thankfully I don’t often remember them. The good dreams seem to stay with me. More vivid and colorful. But what happens when you can’t sleep?! Painsomnia. So tired, and yet no sleep. No respite from my chronic daily pain. No break from my emotions. No time for my mind to stop rehashing the negative and remember the positive. I’m exhausted all the time. It’s a constant fight of mind over body or body over mind. I depend on these breaks. I need them to function. Without them, I’m lost.